Sorry for the long absence, I decided to go visit my brother and his family for a few days. I was not good while there..........

This week's weigh in is not going to be a good one. I've been eating way too much junk and not tracking. I seem to do this everytime I lose 10lbs, fall off the wagon and gorge. I'm trying to keep it to a minimum, but we'll see what the scale says.

Down 1.8 lbs this week, this loss earned me a 10lb star to stick to my booklet. I know I could have lost more but I got lazy and didn't track my food at all. When I don't track I tend to under eat and get paranoid about every little thing I'm putting in my mouth.

Goals this week:

• track EVERYTHING (gonna be hard because my Bday is this week)
• start exercising
• stop weighing myself twice a day

Here is what 259lbs looks like on me. I hate this, it looks like I have a pair of tits growing out of my back. I seldom allow photos, so there are no good ones of me out there, only the taken on the sly. The photo on my profile was taken June 2007, I was only 15lbs smaller but had some really good undergarments. It's amazing what a $300 corset can do for your shape. I will retake these photos in this outfit every 20lbs from now. Sorry for such a short post, I just have an overwhelming feeling to jump on my elliptical and to go pump some iron.
Later.

Stumble

Friday's weigh in was awesome, down another 3.4lbs for a total of 9.6lbs, so close to ten. The meeting was good, I really like this new leader, she's fun and has a ton of energy.

I usually make Friday my high point day, after weigh in and meeting I meet a friend for lunch. We always go to the same Vietnamese place and have beef satay soup. I do my weekly grocery shop after this, come home and make homemade pizza (extremely thin crust, lots of veggies and sauce, little bit of cheese). Dessert is 2 chocolate wafers with 2Tbsp of frozen light cool whip sandwiched in between. None of these are very high in points, but I feel as if I've indulged all day especially the soup, I love it. Super spicy and so decadent. I don't eat before weighing in, so I estimate the whole day is around 30 - 35 points.


This week was different, Friday I ate way too much pizza and went to bed uncomfortably full. Part of this was from being extremely constipated (sorry), and part because it was so damn good. I usually throw any leftovers out but my husband said he would have them for lunch the next day. Saturday I got up and was still feeling like crap, I opened the fridge and all sanity and reason fled. I ate over the course of the day:

• four pieces of leftover pizza
• 1.5 cups of leftover bouillabaisse
• 1 mini apple pie that my friend had made for my husband
• 2 full fat granola bars
• and apple
• some brazil nuts
• a handful of dill pickle chips with cottage cheese
• oil popped and butter drenched popcorn
• a cool whip 'sandwich'

Then, as if the above wasn't enough I ordered chinese and got through:

• 1 green onion cake
• 1 cup of steamed white rice
• 1/2 of an order of ginger beef
• 4 pork dumplings
• a small bottle of coke zero

It was a regular pig fest at my house yesterday. Through the whole thing I didn't feel right, nor did anything but the bouillabaisse taste right. I was still constipated and so full I felt like vomiting. I will never do it again, I still have a food hangover, I feel like shit. At least I finally was able to go to the bathroom.

Still Here

I'm still here, still loosing, just haven't had time to post.

Friday's weigh in was great - down 3.6lbs. I missed the meeting, but was there in time to collect my 5lb star. While there I bought a digital scale and wow, I am totally in love with this thing. It takes all the guess work out of calculating points and comes pre programmed with hundreds of foods. I find that something I would have calculated at 2 or 3 points is actually 4 or 5, so it helps keep me OP.

I snuck a peek at the scale this morning 257.8, of course it is first thing after I wake up and pee. No pesky clothes to add weight, plus I tend to weigh heavier as the day goes on.

Still haven't taken starting photos, must do that soon.

Hopefully I'll have time for a longer post tomorrow.